Tuesday, January 5, 2016

It's My Life And I'm Going To Live It! My Mantra For 2016

It's the beginning of 2016 and this year, I decided to do things a little bit differently than in years past. Yeah, yeah, in the past I had done the same thing a millions of other people. I made "New Years Resolutions". I've even gone so far as to purchase a journal for my resolutions so I could chronicle my progress as I went along.  And again like millions of other people by month three most of my resolutions has fallen by the wayside.

This year I decided that I was simply going to focus on becoming the best me that I can. As a single working mother of four, I have always put others before myself, my job, my children. Now that they are just about all adults, I can finally take time for me, time to fill up that which I have let go empty for far too long. Now this doesn't mean that I'm going to take on the mantle of "Dead Beat Mom", far from it.

I've been told by other women in the past, "If you don't take the time to take care of yourself and your needs, how are you going to continue to pour into others?" Or like they say on the airlines, " In the event of an emergency please place your oxygen mask on yourself first before assisting someone else." It's just starting to sink in, that all of this is true.

So where to begin? Spirit first, mind second, and body third.

I need to spend more time with God. I pray daily, and I study the word, but not as much as I should. I want to actively seek a closer relationship with God, to earnestly seek His face in all that I do, and to let Him lead me on the path that He has for me. My Mom has this saying, "Let the dead bury the dead." Let the past stay in the past, there are people that really should have been let go a long time ago.

I want to continue to explore my writing and see where it goes! I love what's starting to happen here!! The ability to express myself through writing has become more than fun just for the fun of it, it's also my catharsis, and if I can do this, continue to nurture it and watch it "become", then I'll be good.

To the body thing.....basically I just want to learn to accept and love myself EXACTLY the way that I am! If I can learn to love myself exactly as I am, to finally see myself as beautiful, then no matter what comes next I'll be alright. I'm not going to try and hit the gym everyday because I know I won't do it and then I'll be disappointed in myself and then I'll probably just start finding excuses not to go. I'm going to start slowly and build from there.

I want to be the best person that I can be for myself and for my family, and right now that's all that I can ask.

Whatever you choose to do for the start of the new year make sure that you do it for you! Be patient with yourself and love yourself, not the vain kind of love, but the kind of love that says I love me because I value who am now and what I will become.

Much Love,