I can't even begin to count the number of times that I'll be in a crowed place and people will walk right into me, like they cant even see me. And when I work up the courage to say, "Excuse me.", they'll look at me with that look that says, "Oh I didn't see you!"
I think in some way, shape, or form, I've been dealing with this off and on my entire life. When I was very little, I was incredibly shy. I was the kind of little girl that would hide behind my mother when someone would try and speak to me. And so it was until my first pivotal life moment, I wanted to be a cheerleader. I was in the 6th going into the 7th grade and the opportunity came around for try outs. I told my mother and she said, "Well, you can't be a cheerleader if your can't get out in front of people and make yourself heard." And so I did. I became a Junior Varsity Cheerleader, and then by my Sophomore or Junior year I was a Varsity Cheerleader. Cheer leading forced me to come out of my shell, but I was still unseen.
Well, the years have gone by, I'm just beginning my 50's and the invisibility is still there. This past weekend I decided to go to my first real party since my divorce. I tried to get a few girlfriends to go with me, but they couldn't, but I was determined to go, so I went alone. I thought to myself, I can do this! "After all," I said to myself, "You'll never meet a nice guy stuck up in the house." It was the biggest mistake that I ever made. New out fit, nails done, make-up done....and I went unnoticed the entire evening. Oh it was a lovely event, but all I can say is THANK GOD for the trusty Kindle app on my phone. The party was on a ship, with a lovely deck, so that's where I ended up, being kept company by the characters of whatever book that I was reading. I've come to the realization that I MUST be part fey and my power is to blend flawlessly with my surroundings. I just haven't learned to master my powers, *giggle*
So for those of you out there who feel like I do, just keep pressing. The cosmos will reveal you to those that are worthy enough to see you, the real you. In the meantime "Keep your head to the sky".